Everything Was Beautiful and Nothing Hurt
by Ben Reeves
Ben Reeves, winner of the 2024 Bath Novel Award, has crafted a sensitive and moving novel that forces readers to face death. Or perhaps that should be Death. Death's name, in Reeves's poignant debut, Everything Was Beautiful and Nothing Hurt, is Travis Smith. Travis lives in a mostly empty apartment, "no trinkets, no plants, barely a stick of furniture." His sweater is grey and baggy, and the purring cat that comes in through his window refuses to accept that he doesn't need a companion. Though he is gentle and patient, Travis has no friends or family. His job is to put people at ease in their final moments.
The people Travis aids in their transition are brought tenderly to life in vignettes. At the start of the novel, readers meet Samuel, who'd planned to propose to his pregnant girlfriend on New Year's Day, but is now trapped in his mangled car after a bad accident. Travis finds him there, strokes his hair, comforts him as dies: "His face is tight and brave. And we rest in the stillness, just he and I, silent." A few pages later, there's John Lamb, still grieving the loss of his faithful dog Virgil and his loving wife and walks now alone: "His hand is empty with no Virgil leading the way, and his arm feels too light, like it could float away and reach his dog and his wife waiting up there somewhere." Before Travis finds John in his apartment in those final moments, he watches him, observing carefully the way he says "g'morning, g'morning, g'morning, and when a stranger looks at him, he knows he's not a ghost." In these small moments, Reeves shows the power of careful attention skillfully applied.
It's the stray cat that sends him to the apartment across the hall, where he encounters Dalia and her daughters: baby Neda and eight-year-old Layla, who promptly asks Travis to watch her play a video game and invites him to her birthday party. Though Travis knows he must hold himself apart from the people he encounters, with Dalia and Layla, his resistance is futile. Before long, his customary detachment is set aside as he finds himself enfolded in their small family, falling for Dalia, despite knowing that there's no way for it to end happily. In "these impossible hours where the world doesn't know itself" as Dalia kisses Travis, he tries to forget: "I am happy to unknow myself." Their relationship unfolds between the stories of people dying, some suddenly and some after years of waiting and hoping for the end to finally come. They all recognize Travis when the final moments arrive, understanding, as we all must, that Death is a certainty. When tragedy touches Dalia and her family, Travis must reckon with his own certain truth: who he is and what he must do.
The relationship between Travis and Dalia is touching, but Reeves is at his best in the in-between moments, spot-on descriptions of otherwise insignificant experiences, like riding the bus, which "rattles and clatters like an old projector, the filmstrip of windows with the dust and scratches of a world flickering by, black and white, and no one says a word." Or Giselle, approaching 50, standing before a full-length mirror, lamenting the way her body has changed while her husband whistles at her and kisses her: "He squeezes her sagging backside. And she smiles and throws the crochet blanket back over the mirror." Or the profligate spill of details from a thousand Christmas mornings, which begins, "The vicar lights a candle in the vestibule while Louis checks on the turkey that's been cooking all night--his whole house is thick with the savoury smell--and Erin pats the stocking at the end of her bed" before carrying on, capturing so many stories in one gorgeous paragraph. Through Travis's careful gaze, readers will see themselves anew, falling in love with humanity as they stand with Travis, "peeking like an urchin through a sweet shop window."
Though it is about death, Everything Was Beautiful and Nothing Hurt is a book that celebrates life and humanity, even when the portrait focuses on the non-human, as when a fawn is attacked by an old stag or in the final imagery that chronicles the brief life and transcendent death of a group of mayflies who realize that "This day. This first day they flew. This is their one day, their last day." In all these portraits of lives lived and lost, readers will be reminded of the sacredness of every ordinary encounter or commonplace experience: "In these tiny moments, when the spectacle is stripped away, when there is no reason for the day, what's left appears to be something true, something fundamental to being a person."
Reeves's novel is a beautiful antidote to hate and fear, its dark subject matter notwithstanding. Everything Was Beautiful and Nothing Hurt will linger, perfect for book groups unafraid of deeper conversations, or for solo contemplation. --Sara Beth West








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